I am enjoying the process of creativity and working finally on the website again… it’s all taking longer than I thought but it is a learning process after all and life happens irregardless of good planning sometimes things just happen which take priority over the everyday work load.

STill new products have made it on to the website and I am working hard on getting the crystal properties finished and uploaded… oooh so much still to do but it has to be a fun process and right now I am enjoying it!

This weekend even I was feeling down and thought how nice it would be to be appreciated and I had a weekend where I was shown how much love there is in my world. I also had an experience with a child stealing an angel from my stand and I thought well there is nothing I can do let it go karma will sort it out and just as the words had left my lips a friend gave me a gift of a spirit guide drawing he had just done for me as a surprise.

I didn’t really get the amazing ability to send things out and then let go and just allow the universe to work out the how and I am beginning to see the power we all have for making the world not just our own but others better.  I just wanted to share these experiences and say I created that, I am now focusing on picking myself up dusting me off and then working to create real positive change in the world. 

sending love and light to you all

xx

Often things happen in ways I had never imagined, for example I changed a work time for a client last-minute and it turned out that I ended up in a place which was completely unplanned and made a booking to be some where for a demo.  Now had I not made the change of my work times I wouldn’t have been in that place.  Or I was at an event that was quiet and I made 3 contacts that have been so helpful to me in the long-term.

I have been working on my faith and have been grateful for each exciting new twist and turn in my journey.  I am grateful for being able to finally see and take responsibility for myself.  I am beginning to really gain a understamding that if we constantly take actions to propel ourselves forward no matter how small then let go of any attachments as to how things will work out then that is when we enter a true state of flow where contacts, opportunities suddenly appear.

If the truth be told all we need is out there in front of us however it isn’t until we open ourselves up consciously that we really see what is out there.  Most of us are still riding the highs and lows of life thinking that life just happens to us right?  I was like that for some time and still occasionally struggle with finger-pointing and blaming the world when actually I put myself there and that’s ok because I learned and now I am able to work from within to move forward.

Everything is exciting and although people around me may not always be as supportive as I may wish it is because everyone is working on different levels and I can only affect where I am so rather than conflict I see a situation for what it is projections of where each person is in their journey and I try to breathe through situations now rather than react to them.  This has brought me great peace and deeper insight into how destructive conflict is and how often it can be avoided.

I am working on being able to stand my ground and shine my light remaining calm when the people around me may be working through their ‘stuff’ and being argumentative and negative.  It is sometimes very hard because I just want to share the love and help, however as many know and understand we can only help those who are ready to help themselves and patience is important for those who are not ready yet.

Still I would not change my world, I am grateful for the colour and diversity and the lessons I am learning.

I am immensely grateful to my web designer for being patient and being a general genius!  I decided that moving forward Maddogg designs will be a home for crystals and bespoke healing jewellery as well as supporting friends and fellow artists as a portal for selling hand crafted items, moving away from the mass-produced manufactured items.  I hope that once the site is launched that you will have a look at the site and give some feedback let me know what you like, what you want to see more of

Not long now…. more posts to follow on the excitement for the new website.

I am no perfect person and I don’t try to pretend I am, I am excited however to learn new things and to share and teach what I have learnt.  I spent quite a few years in a colourful world full of intense emotion and I thought that as I rolled with the highs and lows that life would always be this way for me.  However as I have learned, and implemented this year I have started to see that I can find inner balance and be in a state of flow rather than stop and starting  in life.  I have found the words of Byron Katie have been really strong in the back of my mind as I start to look at my impact on myself and the world around me.  Accepting what is rather than fighting it and then making changes so I move forward rather than remaining stuck.

I have been using Heart breathing that I learned in courses with Kerwin Rae this year.

It has also been a year where my faith and belief that things will work out for the best and that a solution will always present itself if you remain open enough.  I have found especially with a finance focus that when I have been open and unattached to how and when money will come that finances flow and there is always enough to cover everything that needs to be covered.  However when I have allowed myself to be caught up in a downward spiral of emotion focusing on “what if/but and hows” the flow stops until I refocus and just allow it to happen with a belief that something will always come up.

As I move forward towards the last quarter of this year I am more focused than ever on the path that I am taking and that I am grateful for each and every day, grateful for the people in my life, and really grateful for all the journeys and lessons that have brought me to this moment.

I am committed to appreciating the now and to walk the walk as well as talk the talk.  If I would like to see things in the world then the best place to start is with myself and my own actions in the world.

I was lucky I met some really inspirational people and started to realise the people who I saw as being successful and being where I wanted to be in life were 100% focused on what they wanted as in the focused on the work they love,  no focus on debt just the knowledge it would be paid off and the money would come in and that they were grateful for what they have now and not focused on what they don’t have.

gratitude is something I have experienced in the poorest of places where people don’t have money, a job, good healthcare, a proper roof over their head and yet I saw a richness and inner gratefulness for what they did have.  Yes it would be nice to have a house and a bed but why not be grateful for what you have and feel good about it then work towards that.  It’s humbling and immensely inspiring and I have kept a gratitude journal and time and time again I realise how blessed and lucky I am to be me.

It’s given me light when I have been in the dark and surrounded me with love when I felt alone.  I also learned a good idea from a course I was in recently celebrate every success no matter how small and if you really want to move forward than celebrate everyone elses success because we are all learning from each other.  It can be so hard when someone gets a promotion and you are bypassed by someone you don’t think is worthy, at the end of the day that is your judgment and isn’t it better to find joy than wallow in the darkness of jealousy and resent?

I am trying to remember this and sometimes like everyone else I judge or feel a pang of bitterness and yet something now inside me is starting to show me situations in a different light and I see that we are faces with millions of choices each day as to how we interpret and react to things.  But striving to see things as being positive or to try to put a positive reframe on events and situations I find that I am gaining a new understanding of my own capabilities.

I am growing and transcending the person I was before.  I would spend a lot of time feeling down about ‘Stuff’ and now I see it I had a choice to accept what is learn and move on rather than waste time and energy achieving nothing other than self pity.

Its exciting I am grateful for the grey days as much as the sun and I am beginning to see that my beliefs before limited me like having blinkers on now I am finally getting a glimpse of the possibilities out there and I am ready to dive right in and live in limitless possibilities.

Stress is just a part of modern living right?  Surely everyone deals with stress and just gets on with their life, who am I to complain about feeling weighed down by committment and my work life balance?  How many of us can relate to this thinking, I know for sure I can.  I believed that life was just varying degrees of stress and that people  who claimed they were stress free where just very lucky individuals.

It wasn’t until my hectic work lifestyle took its toll on my body and I began to find that I was exhausted to the point I couldn’t do simple things. I was irritable, found that I would snap at people I loved and truly began to hate myself for this grisly unhappy person I had become.  For years I had told people the benefit of taking time out and here I was a complete hypocrite.  I finally became very depressed and shut the world out, each day forcing myself to get out of bed and to do one thing at least a day just for me and to be OK with that.  To truly allow myself to listen to the voice inside me.

I started small with walks outside in the sun, a long soak in the bath where I wasn’t rushing to meetings, or events.  I started to be consciously aware of the tiredness of my body and mind so I rested.  I read books I liked, watched films I liked, making sure that nothing else suffered however I placed less pressure on myself.  If something had to wait another day for completion I allowed this to be ok.

After working on me I found my depression lifted, my energy returned and still everything was done.  It made me question why I allowed myself to get this run down before realising everything can be achieved without having to feel like I needed to neglect myself.

Yes situations can be stressful, however it is up to us as to how we allow these situations to affect us.  If we constantly look after ourselves then we are stronger and more resilient to stressful situations taking them in our stride rather than letting them weigh us down.

I am a great believer in yoga, tai chi, holistic and complimentary therapies, by maintaining ourselves strong in body, mind and spirit we are able to take on what ever life throws at us.  Try it for a month I guarantee you will be surprised by the amazing benefits.

For advice and tips on stress management;

www.holisticmetamorphosis.com

Over the years I have worked in many different environments, unsocial hours of hospitality, corporate jungle with tight deadlines, long hours and infinite stress.  I have always been interested in complimentary therapies, healing techniques and would dip in and out over the years.  Even when I started my business with crystals using their vibrations to create healing jewellery I didn’t really take time for myself.  I would have reminders now and again with bouts of sever exhaustion and mental fatigue and I would only rest enough to get going again, never really allowing myself to re-charge fully.

Then I started to study therapies myself and I suddenly became aware that if I wanted to help people I needed to lead by example walk the walk and talk the talk.  How can I give advice if I don’t do it myself?  So I started small by making sure I would read or do something for me just before bed only for a few minutes.  I found that even 5 mins a night meant I got to sleep quicker, I didn’t have hours of brain chatter keeping me away and I woke up with more energy.

Then once a month I would have a massage or healing of some sort not only to see what worked for me but because its nice to take time out just for me.  It gave me time to clear my mind of the stress and thoughts that I was facing at tha time.  I made me connect with myself on a deeper level and I began to realise how much I had neglected myself on many levels.

So I started to improve my eating habits, drank more water, had less indulgences and put things in balance.  As I was doing this I realised that although I was allowing more time for ‘me’ my list of  things I needed to do was just as long but I managed to get them all done.  I felt more productive, creative and more importantly happy.  For the first time in a long time when something stressful came up I didn’t feel overwhelmed and over burdened I could just deal with it and move on.

It may seem that taking time out for yourself is a selfish thing to do when you want to give and I think this says it all “first fill your cup so it is over flowing then you can pour into the cups of others for you come from a place of abundance, where you are not depleted.”  By building yourself up to a centre of inner strength you bring balance and harmony into your life, looking holistically at health, wealth, relationships, etc.  If you aren’t getting enough sleep or are pushing your body to its limits is it really suprising you start to feel agitated, angry, depressed?  These are keys to noticing something is out of balance, take some time out to explore what you enjoy.  You deserve it as we all do!

Taking time out for me has truly been a life lesson well learned and I am now able to really give to others which is my passion in life.  There are some great resources out there why don’t you get curious and see what wonders you can discover.

I am truly humbled by the experience and am committed to improving myself and striving to be the best that I can be so that I can have a big positive impact on the world.

bright blessings to all those that were there with me this weekend

For many years I was caught up in a victim mindset, blaming events and people around me taking little responsibility for my life, I event often felt powerless just accepting the hand that I felt life had dealt me.  When I had my spiritual awakening over 5 years ago I felt as if I had a purpose in life but I still felt tied down by lack and fear.  Each year I would struggle to keep afloat and I would buy books, dvd’s to try to learn how to make a change in my life with little success. 

Then one day I saw the secret as I am sure many of you have, it inspired me in ways I had never dreamt but still nothing, life didn’t change over night and I was still struggling to get by.  Slowly over 2 years events happened that challenged me and I had to grow a great deal from it.  I decided finally after a series of challenges that I faced and over came that it was time to change my life.  So in October 2009 I attended an event organised by HUB and Think big education and I was truly inspired to listen to great teachers and learn what it was that I needed to change to make my life the way I wanted it.

I read more books listened to more DVD’s but this time I was committed to changing my current situation and after attending a couple of training events the penny dropped and I realised that everything is possible through committment, focus, clarity and action.  So I took action I was committed to changing for the better and so I can realise my vision/ dream of helping people in the world.  As any good student I learnt the lessons and applied them practically and I can honestly say it has and is changing my life.

From hating the person I saw in the mirror I learned to see me and love what I see.  I learnt to let go of fear and embrace courage and that if ordinary everyday people can live their dreams I needed to start taking notice of  how they see the world and what they believe in and shift my focus so I emulate them.  Each and every day I am grateful for my awakening and for the choice I made to change my life.

I am now a student for life and am thirsty for information so I can keep improving my life and so I can help inspire people around me.  I have great visions for helping people around me but as I have learnt to be the best I can be to help others I have to work at being the best I can be.

I am not on a path to sharing my knowledge with others, I am building a successful holistic business and I am working with influential teachers I would never have dreamt I would be working with.  I doubted that I would ever be successful or that I deserved it, and through personal development in a holistic sence I now see that I can live me dreams and if I can do it so can you.  But it comes down to the choice are you committed to doing what it takes to improve your life, if the answer is yes great you have taken the hardest step if not but you want change maybe you should ask your self why it is a no, this may lead you to an answer you weren’t expecting.